JUST KEEP GOING

Lately I know I have been over working myself. I have been fitting absolutely everything I can within the 24 hour window given to me each day. Between workouts, meetings, school, family, personal time,eating,sleeping and friends I have definitely drained myself. I just haven't been able to say no. I guess it's because I think I am superwoman and I can save the world. I can't say though that I haven't been pulling it off but I think I've reached my breaking point. I haven't been using my weekends for rest but for staying out all hours of the night and hanging out. And then Sunday cram in about 3-6 hours of homework. During the week because I choose to workout no matter what I've been getting home late and been up till 11 almost 12 finishing things to get ready for the next day. I was pulling it off for the last four weeks about, but now I feel myself getting sick and overall tired. I hate having to pick and choose things but I think I have to. I have to cut out things that aren't necessary. Will I actually do it? Maybe just till I get better. This is one thing that I don't tend to live and learn about. I plan to do everything I can all the time. I would think I would learn by now that stress on my mind and body is not okay. But I haven't, maybe one day I will but as of now, I rather just keep going (as long as I can).

TOO OLD FOR TRICK-OR-TREATING?

How old is to old to go trick-or-treating? It's been all over the news, it was a article in my school newspaper and it pondered in my mind as I thought about Halloween this year. I am 16 years old and I still love candy. It's not fair to put a cap on the age on which your allowed to walk around and get free candy. I get a thrill off of dressing up and being silly. I still am a kid, well kind of. I was surprised when I saw in a city in IL set a certain age limit to trick-or-treating. I do understand that you don't want that 40 year old man with the weird hat and awkward posture to snatch up your kids or their bags of candy. So maybe a cap on trick-or-treating should be implemented but maybe like 18. After high school maybe my urge for free candy will lessen? So I am willing to compromise at 18 I will no longer go trick-or-treating.  But that just means I am going to have to fill up six pillows case of candy instead of three between now and when I turn 18. I like challenges! ;-)

GOODBYE GIVING UP

I don't understand the mentality of giving up. The whole throw in the towel thing doesn't really work for me. It may be because I have to much pride. That must be it. Every time giving up or going easy crosses my path I kick out the way like a putter would a soccer ball. When you give up you get nothing in return. So that all that you did put in was a waste of time. I think every time I give up on something I bring myself down; subconsciously. Something in my mind sticks that I didn't finish a task or marked myself as handicap to the task. I don't see why you want to give up, or what feels good about it. I can't stand the word GIVE UP honestly. My fingers cramp every time I type it, except when it's in the sentence GOODBYE GIVING UP!

THE BOXCAR CHILDREN

I fell in love with reading when I read The Boxcar Children. I was eight years old when I first picked up the yellow covered booked and with the red letters. I wasn't sure about it at first but I grabbed it anyway. I remember the first time I read the book, right off the back I loved it. Although it was more than that, I fell in love with reading in general. I feel in love with the feeling of being apart of another world that I  could enter and exit at my own disgretion. There is so much to this idea of reading that I want to share and why I fell in love with it but I am saving that detail for my cause and effect essay !

5:30 IN THE MORNING

The best time of the day is 5:30 in the morning. You may be thinking "umm...no, that's the worst!" Just think about it what happens at 5:30 in the morning? Absolutely nothing! I love 5:30 in the morning because it's peaceful. At 5:30 in the morning no one in my house is awake. The sound of silence surrounds me and I am able to spend time with me, all alone. I don't have to worry about my prayer time being interrupted or my younger siblings barging in my room uninvited. At 5:30 the sky is still dark, the outside is calm and I feel renewed. At 5:30am there is nothing to stress about, there is no one trying to get my attention. At 5:30am it's just me, myself, God and I. I love that time of the day because it gives me my strength before I have to endure a long and demanding evening. 5:30 am is my time for me.

Seattle

Seattle. I am not sure if it is the clouds or the rain that make me so drowsy. I've lived in Seattle for a while, almost  my whole life. But when I was younger I never really noticed how effective the weather can be towards how I feel everyday. Waking up to the overcast, the chilly wind and the pouring rain is not a formula for the usually happy, springing and exciting person that I usually am. The weather can just be so draining at times. Many days I would love to just put on my warm socks, curl up in bed with a cup of hot coco and do nothing. Have you waken up and looked outside to the gray motionless atmosphere? In all it can just be depressing. I am a sun lover, a palm tree, beach and hot days lover. As beautiful as Seattle can be at times I could still use a little more sunshine! But Oh, well...I can make the best of it !

My Righteous Mind

I have deep down desire for working out in general. When I don't workout I am cranky, unsatisfied, and rude. Working out is like a drug for me. It allows me to sleep better, eat better and overall just feel better. Working out for me is definitely my stress reliever, it helps me to keep my righteous mind throughout the week. After I work out I feel fresh and accomplished. I love the pain in working out, the relief after the workout and the muscle gain a few days later. I have to have working out apart of my life. In many ways it makes me who I am. Maybe it's just my competitive spirit talking but I truly do believe that I am in LOVE with working out. I wouldn't have it any other way!