SAYING GOODBYE ...MISS YOU ALREADY

It hurts a lot when someone important leaves your life. My mind recollects on the joys, all the laughs, all the fights and the tears. It never really hits me though when they say "I'm leaving." The time doesn't really seem to come...until it does. It is then when my heart drops, my palms get sweaty and my allergies start to kick up(tears). I like to tell them closeness has nothing to do with distance, meaning that we can still stay close no matter how far you go, but even that is hard to grasp as an alternative to seeing them everyday. It is the moments when I am hanging out with the usual crew and that person is not that there that it hits me. It is the moments when I ask if you want to see movie but you can't because you live to far. It is the moments like this when I feel I've been hit by a bus and trampled over by elephants. Its the presence of that person that I long for, that I want to hug and be with. Its the face and their eyes I want to look into but I can't for a while and that hurts. It like a stake stabbing me in the heart, or tearing me into tiny pieces like a unwanted piece of paper. When the day comes of departure my mind races: what didn't I say, what didn't I do? I want to make up any lost of time within the last few moments we have together. And reality is I can't. I can though be thankful that blood couldn't make us any closer and our love will last forever!